Sunday, April 30, 2017

May 2017: Conquering Loneliness

Many years ago, I was sitting at a table with friends, listening to the conversation. They were smiling and laughing. One person feeding off the other. There was a camaraderie and a banter that was happening as they swapped stories.

I was enjoying taking this all in, but then, all of a sudden, a deep sadness hit me. It was as if the table stretched away from me like in a movie when time slows down, and I was very present to how "on the outside" I felt in that moment. I felt disconnected, separate -- an observer -- and I just knew that I didn't belong.

Maybe you can relate?

Later that night, I turned to my partner and said, "I think I'm really lonely and always have been." He was shocked! We'd only been dating for a short time, but to his mind, I was a very social and connected person.

I burst into tears and said, "I know! What the hell is wrong with me?"

This moment launched me into investigating loneliness and trying to understand how I could be surrounded by people and at the same time feel completely separate.

Along the way, I discovered that, as a result of the abuse I experienced, I had come to believe that there was something different about me, something that people just could never understand. And so, as a result of this belief, no matter how many connections I had, I could only connect to a point and then no further. The result being, I was left with this deep loneliness.

As I set about to resolve this, it led me to exploring many aspects of connection and relationship: trust, setting boundaries, intimacy, vulnerability, communication.

And bit by bit, I was able to address each block that was keeping me isolated and disconnected.

This past weekend, I was away at a work + play weekend with eight other amazing women who I consider friends for life. I found myself once again at a table, watching my friends share about their lives (the good, the bad, the ugly), and I felt a deep warmth as I sat in their presence -- connected, receiving, and able to give of myself in a way that I once believed would never be possible.

Today, if you're feeling lonely -- I get it! I want to encourage you to try on challenging any belief that is causing isolation or disconnection in your own life.

And, of course, I'm happy to be here to support you in taking that on!



In connection,



Watch this video to learn how loneliness may be impacting your body.



Take this loneliness quiz.


What is one small thing you can do today to create more connection in your life?

BOOK OF THE MONTH

Lonely: A Memoir
by Emily White
"Many people, over the course of the past several years, have asked me why I would want to write a book about chronic loneliness. The subject, they hint, is embarrassing; it's best kept unmentioned. And loneliness, they say, isn't 'real' --- at least not in the way that depression or bipolar disorder are real. Every word I've written has been penned against a chorus of 'Don't and 'Why bother?'” 


Learning to set boundaries and to communicate is one of the key things that led to more connection in my own life. I hope you will download this master class that has been specifically designed to help you reach a place where you feel confident, joyful, and empowered. The strategies I share in this class are practical, easy to use, and the most effective ways I know to overcome the "people pleasing" and pain that comes when we lack boundaries.





UPCOMING EVENTS

 

Monday, April 3, 2017

April 2017: It's never too late to make a difference...

April is Child Abuse Prevention month, and has been since 1983. I was seven years old when this month became equated with a time to pause and reflect on the current status of our country (world) with regard to child abuse.

At this age, I was likely being abused but only have vague memories (it wasn't until I was 10 years old that I started experiencing abuse consciously).

This past December, I turned forty. Thirty years later after my first full conscious experience of abuse, my life has changed in ways that I could never have dreamed of.

But, on a broader scale, there is still much work to be done to raise awareness, increase prevention, and create global healing for those who have been abused.

This feels like a very big job some days!

Yet there are amazing organizations (here's one: https://www.childwelfare.gov/topics/preventing/preventionmonth/) and amazing people (too many to list!) who are taking a stand each day to bring this issue out into the light and to make sure that more and more people are able to recognize abuse and take steps to protect children from ongoing harm.

There are still many cracks in the systems that are meant to protect children, but today, I'm feeling encouraged as I see more and more people becoming advocates, healers, peer counselors, speakers-- there is a clear refusal to sit down and be quiet!

Today, I want to encourage you to consider one small thing you could do in your network of family, friends, and/or community to help increase awareness.

One suggestion is to share this series of interviews on how to teach children about sex, preventing sexual abuse, and more!




In solidarity,



Watch this video to learn 7 Sneaky Things Narcissists Say to Get you Back.



Rachel Evan Woods, actress and star of Westworld, reveals she was raped. Read her story.

What is one small thing you can do today to break the silence and increase awareness in your communiy?

BOOK OF THE MONTH

Way of the Peaceful Warrior
by Dan Millman


"...Action always happens in the present, because it is an expression of the body, which can only exist in the here and now. But the mind is like a phantom that lives only in the past or future. It's only power over you is to draw your attention our of the present.” 
UPCOMING EVENTS
April's Theme: Loss and Grief

As survivors of childhood abuse, all of us have suffered multiple losses that need to be worked through for us to recover.


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Rachel Grant, M.A. Counseling Psychology
Sexual Abuse Recovery Coach
415.484.5682
www.rachelgrantcoaching.com


   
"What you think, you create"

Thursday, March 2, 2017

March 2017: A little touch of March madness.

Happy March! I am sitting outside enjoying some much needed sunshine (it's been rain, rain, and more rain here in San Francisco lately). And just as I sat down to write my note to you this month, my two cats came blazing through the backyard in a game of chase - clearly enjoying a bit of spring fever.

Now the older cat, Sable, is pretty sly and immediately heads to a safe spot behind a nearby bush, but the younger one, Bandit, decides to hold his ground firmly out in the open. Eventually, he got bored and flopped down on the warm earth. And as soon as he let his guard down, whoosh! Sable pounced!


What came to mind as I watched this play out is how I used to believe that this is how relationship worked! You chase, pursue, scurry after the thing you want and then as soon as you let your guard down - bam - hurt again, betrayed again, left again.

It has been a journey for me to learn to leave these negative patterns behind so that I can enjoy a healthy, fulfilling relationship, free of all of the fear, and being ever watchful for pain.

I share a bit about how I did that in this interview I did recently with Melanie Tonia Evans. I hope you'll check it out and perhaps find some freedom from your own relationship "madness".


Watch Now!



Very best,



Watch this video to learn some strategies for staying out of toxic relationships.


Did you know that less than 40 percent of children who are sexually abused tell anyone - and a fraction of those cases end up being reported? Learn more about one survivor's experience.

What is something that you believe about relationships that keeps you in the "madness"?

BOOK OF THE MONTH

Come Back: A Mother and Daughter's
Journey Through Hell and Back

by Claire & Mia Fontaine
In powerful parallel stories, mother and daughter give mesmerizing first-person accounts of the nightmare that shattered their family and the amazing journey they took to find their way back to each other. Claire Fontaine's relentless cross-country search for her missing child and ultimate decision to force her into treatment in Eastern Europe is a gripping tale of dead ends, painful revelations, and, at times, miracles. Mia Fontaine describes her refuge in the seedy underworld of felons and addicts as well as the jarring shock of the extreme, if loving, school that enabled her to overcome depression and self-loathing. Both women detail their remarkable process of self-examination and healing with humor and unsparing honesty.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

February 2017: My 3 minute interview on Fox news...

So they say we all get 15 minutes of fame. Well this past month, I used up 3.5 of my minutes to appear on Fox 2 News to raise awareness about sexual abuse.

You can check it out here:
http://www.ktvu.com/news/228091943-video

It was a great honor to be able to speak about this issue to the general public. Though, to be honest, it also feels like a small drop in the bucket. I'm not minimizing the experience and I'm hopeful that what I said helped someone, but I am also extremely aware these days of how much of an epidemic this issue is.

Last month, I also appeared on United Intentions Radio and spoke with the host about a variety of things -- including what we can do to better address this epidemic.

Some days, this issue feels as overwhelming as the anger, PTSD, shame, and confusion that I felt years and years ago. I find myself always coming back to something my mom said to me: "Rachel, honey, you can't save everyone, but you can do something for the one person in front of you at any given moment."

Today, instead of cutting myself and curling up in a ball, I'm appearing on radio and tv shows (it's a bit surreal at times). And because of this, I remain inspired that we can face this, we can overcome this, we can heal. In fact, we have to!

For every one of us who has been hurt by the bullshit, harmful choices of an abuser, we must fight, we must heal -- because there will be someone, someday who will look to us to be his or her guide out of the pain.


To broad and deep healing for all,



Watch this video to hear Dr. David Lisak discuss the challenges male survivors face as a result of the myths that exist about men and sexual abuse.


Did you know that there are 19 million male survivors of abuse? Men, you are not alone, you have a voice and can live beyond surviving. Learn more about an amazing organization fighting for male survivors.

What is something that helps you keep moving, even when you don't see how to take the next step?

BOOK OF THE MONTH

She's Come Undone
by Wally Lamb

"Mine is a story of craving; an unreliable account of lusts and troubles that began, somehow, in 1956 on the day our free television was delivered." So begins the story of Dolores Price, the unconventional heroine of Wally Lamb's She's Come Undone. Dolores is a class-A emotional basket case, and why shouldn't she be? She's suffered almost every abuse and familial travesty that exists: Her father is a violent, philandering liar; her mother has the mental and emotional consistency of Jell-O; and the men in her life are probably the gender's most loathsome creatures. 

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Tuesday, January 3, 2017

January 2017: Are you struggling with depression?

Well hello 2017!

I know for many of us, 2016 was rough, and I am certainly keen to look ahead and see what this next year of life brings with fingers crossed that we find more balance and peace as individuals, communities, and the world as a whole.


But I'm guessing that 2017 will come with it's own surprises, challenges, and both beautiful and ugly moments.

I sometimes marvel at the tenacity of us humans. With so much unknown and unseeable, we forge ahead, we find a way to remain optimistic and hopeful, we continue to love, take chances, and push forward with our goals and pursue our dreams.

I love that!

And as someone who has the joy everyday of working with survivors who find a way to do this in the face of past trauma - I am all the more inspired.


Today, if you are feeling hopeful, I want to encourage you to cast your vision for 2017 and to get clear about what you want to create!

If you're feeling less than hopeful today, I get it - I've been there. If there is anything I can do to support you, I'm just an email away.



With love and hope,




Did depression lead to Dwayne Johnson's career-defining moment? Watch this video to hear his story.


Learn how running can change the brains of the depressed!  


What would you like to leave behind as 2016 comes to an end? What do you look forward to creating in 2017?

BOOK OF THE MONTH
 
Little Bee
by Chris Cleave




"Every face I see, I am looking for them in it. If I did meet you then the first thing you would have noticed would have been my eyes staring at your face, as if they were trying to see someone else in you, as if they were desperate to make you into a ghost. If we did meet, I hope you did not take this personally."



READ MORE HERE!

 
 
 



 
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The fear of abandonment is extremely common in those of us who have been abused. When it comes to abandonment, we are very much driven by a fear of the unknown. We do not know if the people we are connecting to may one day withdraw their protection or support.

"People always leave" can be a common inner belief we hold. Some of the behaviors that we fall into as survivors to try to avoid being abandoned can set us up for failure in our relationships.

Boy have I been there! And I can't wait to share with you what helped me put an end to this paralyzing fear.
 
 



 
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Tuesday, December 6, 2016

December 2016: Happy Holidays!


Wishing You a Happy Holiday and New Year!
 
As I reflect today on how 2016 has unfolded, there have been some really amazing things happening in my business (I'll share more about that in a sec), but what really stands out to me is the power of friendship and family.

I'm so very thankful to the people who have walked alongside me this year and brought so much joy and laughter and support into my day to day. I had some great adventures this year: attending concerts (Gwen Stefani, Javier Colon, Rascal Flatts, Sheila E.!), took some time out for restoration at Wilbur Hot Springs with my honey, hiking with friends, made my first trip to Canada, traveled to Maui to spend Thanksgiving with family, and goofed off on the beach with my former hip hop crew.

As I think about these experiences, I'm also very present to a time in my life when things didn't feel so abundant. When I felt alone and isolated. When despair had a daily grip on me and made laughter a chore.

This makes these moments all the more meaningful for me. And it's also why I feel blessed everyday to get to support others in transforming their lives in similar ways.


This year:
  • Over 100 people completed the Beyond Surviving Program and are now doing wonderful things like traveling the world, getting engaged, starting the career they've always longed for, excelling at self-care, and healing others.
  • I interviewed some amazing folks for the Beyond Surviving Podcast including Terry Cranford, Woody Haiken, Rae Luskin, and so many more!
  • In collaboration with Eve, a Beyond Surviving graduate, we created a special podcast segment, Transforming Trauma, in which she shares her truth and perspective and dives into topics that might otherwise be avoided!
  • With the help of a dear friend, we gave my website a brand new look and I did a Facebook Live Scavenger Hunt that was super fun!

Looking to 2017, I am branching out and taking on some new projects! Here’s what I’ve got in mind for the New Year:
  • Further develop programs for medical professionals about screening for abuse;
  • Continue my efforts with CSA Survivor Force in raising awareness about sexual abuse;
  • Serve as an advisor in the development of a game that helps survivors process their feelings;
  • Launch more group programs for men;
  • … and even more!

Most importantly, I want you to know that I couldn't have done any of it without your amazing and ongoing support. I’m in an incredible community and hope that you have been touched, inspired, and healed by something we shared this year.

So, with deep gratitude, my wish for you is that your holiday and 2017 are filled with joy, love, laughter, and strength.

With much love,

 
* Lahaina, Maui


* Rascal Flatts Concert!