April is Child Abuse Prevention month, and has been since 1983. I was seven years old when this month became equated with a time to pause and reflect on the current status of our country (world) with regard to child abuse.
At this age, I was likely being abused but only have vague memories (it wasn't until I was 10 years old that I started experiencing abuse consciously).
This past December, I turned forty. Thirty years later after my first full conscious experience of abuse, my life has changed in ways that I could never have dreamed of.
But, on a broader scale, there is still much work to be done to raise awareness, increase prevention, and create global healing for those who have been abused.
This feels like a very big job some days!
Yet there are amazing organizations (here's one: https://www.childwelfare.gov/topics/preventing/preventionmonth/) and amazing people (too many to list!) who are taking a stand each day to bring this issue out into the light and to make sure that more and more people are able to recognize abuse and take steps to protect children from ongoing harm.
There are still many cracks in the systems that are meant to protect children, but today, I'm feeling encouraged as I see more and more people becoming advocates, healers, peer counselors, speakers-- there is a clear refusal to sit down and be quiet!
Today, I want to encourage you to consider one small thing you could do in your network of family, friends, and/or community to help increase awareness.
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What is one small thing you can do today to break the silence and increase awareness in your communiy?
BOOK OF THE MONTH
Way of the Peaceful Warrior by Dan Millman
"...Action always happens in the present, because it is an expression of the body, which can only exist in the here and now. But the mind is like a phantom that lives only in the past or future. It's only power over you is to draw your attention our of the present.”
Happy March! I am sitting outside enjoying some much needed sunshine (it's been rain, rain, and more rain here in San Francisco lately). And just as I sat down to write my note to you this month, my two cats came blazing through the backyard in a game of chase - clearly enjoying a bit of spring fever.
Now the older cat, Sable, is pretty sly and immediately heads to a safe spot behind a nearby bush, but the younger one, Bandit, decides to hold his ground firmly out in the open. Eventually, he got bored and flopped down on the warm earth. And as soon as he let his guard down, whoosh! Sable pounced!
What came to mind as I watched this play out is how I used to believe that this is how relationship worked! You chase, pursue, scurry after the thing you want and then as soon as you let your guard down - bam - hurt again, betrayed again, left again.
It has been a journey for me to learn to leave these negative patterns behind so that I can enjoy a healthy, fulfilling relationship, free of all of the fear, and being ever watchful for pain.
I share a bit about how I did that in this interview I did recently with Melanie Tonia Evans. I hope you'll check it out and perhaps find some freedom from your own relationship "madness".
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What is something that you believe about relationships that keeps you in the "madness"?
BOOK OF THE MONTH
Come Back: A Mother and Daughter's Journey Through Hell and Back by Claire & Mia Fontaine
In powerful parallel stories, mother and daughter give mesmerizing first-person accounts of the nightmare that shattered their family and the amazing journey they took to find their way back to each other. Claire Fontaine's relentless cross-country search for her missing child and ultimate decision to force her into treatment in Eastern Europe is a gripping tale of dead ends, painful revelations, and, at times, miracles. Mia Fontaine describes her refuge in the seedy underworld of felons and addicts as well as the jarring shock of the extreme, if loving, school that enabled her to overcome depression and self-loathing. Both women detail their remarkable process of self-examination and healing with humor and unsparing honesty.
It was a great honor to be able to speak about this issue to the general public. Though, to be honest, it also feels like a small drop in the bucket. I'm not minimizing the experience and I'm hopeful that what I said helped someone, but I am also extremely aware these days of how much of an epidemic this issue is.
Last month, I also appeared on United Intentions Radio and spoke with the host about a variety of things -- including what we can do to better address this epidemic.
Some days, this issue feels as overwhelming as the anger, PTSD, shame, and confusion that I felt years and years ago. I find myself always coming back to something my mom said to me: "Rachel, honey, you can't save everyone, but you can do something for the one person in front of you at any given moment."
Today, instead of cutting myself and curling up in a ball, I'm appearing on radio and tv shows (it's a bit surreal at times). And because of this, I remain inspired that we can face this, we can overcome this, we can heal. In fact, we have to!
For every one of us who has been hurt by the bullshit, harmful choices of an abuser, we must fight, we must heal -- because there will be someone, someday who will look to us to be his or her guide out of the pain.
To broad and deep healing for all,
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What is something that helps you keep moving, even when you don't see how to take the next step?
BOOK OF THE MONTH
She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb
"Mine is a story of craving; an unreliable account of lusts and troubles that began, somehow, in 1956 on the day our free television was delivered." So begins the story of Dolores Price, the unconventional heroine of Wally Lamb's She's Come Undone. Dolores is a class-A emotional basket case, and why shouldn't she be? She's suffered almost every abuse and familial travesty that exists: Her father is a violent, philandering liar; her mother has the mental and emotional consistency of Jell-O; and the men in her life are probably the gender's most loathsome creatures.
I know for many of us, 2016 was rough, and I am certainly keen to look ahead and see what this next year of life brings with fingers crossed that we find more balance and peace as individuals, communities, and the world as a whole.
But I'm guessing that 2017 will come with it's own surprises, challenges, and both beautiful and ugly moments.
I sometimes marvel at the tenacity of us humans. With so much unknown and unseeable, we forge ahead, we find a way to remain optimistic and hopeful, we continue to love, take chances, and push forward with our goals and pursue our dreams.
I love that!
And as someone who has the joy everyday of working with survivors who find a way to do this in the face of past trauma - I am all the more inspired.
Today, if you are feeling hopeful, I want to encourage you to cast your vision for 2017 and to get clear about what you want to create!
If you're feeling less than hopeful today, I get it - I've been there. If there is anything I can do to support you, I'm just an email away.
With love and hope,
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What would you like to leave behind as 2016 comes to an end? What do you look forward to creating in 2017?
BOOK OF THE MONTH
Little Bee by Chris Cleave
"Every face I see, I am looking for them in it. If I did meet you then the first thing you would have noticed would have been my eyes staring at your face, as if they were trying to see someone else in you, as if they were desperate to make you into a ghost. If we did meet, I hope you did not take this personally."
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The fear of abandonment is extremely common in those of us who have been abused. When it comes to abandonment, we are very much driven by a fear of the unknown. We do not know if the people we are connecting to may one day withdraw their protection or support.
"People always leave" can be a common inner belief we hold. Some of the behaviors that we fall into as survivors to try to avoid being abandoned can set us up for failure in our relationships.
Boy have I been there! And I can't wait to share with you what helped me put an end to this paralyzing fear.
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